I leave for the airport in less than 8 hours and I fly in less than 11.

I keep feeling like I forgot to pack something. And instead of unpacking everything to check if I packed it, I'm going through my room inch by inch. Its easier than unpacking coz it would be like unravelling your intestines then trying to stuff them back in through your asshole. Anyway I rarely leave my stuff outside my room.

Last year when I went back I was with Sushi. And I was super emo. It's weird because it shouldve been easier last year. Since I had a boyfriend to be all supportive and comforting. But I'm a lot calmer this year.

Everything about leaving this time is harder if you look at the bare facts. It's the last time I'm leaving home as a student/dependent. My parents arent visiting this time. It's the longest I'm going to go without seeing them. I dont have any safety net (aka Sushi). But yeah, I'm a lot calmer right now than I was at the same time last year.

I think its because last year I really felt like I wasnt going to come back to Malaysia. And this year, I really feel like I'm definetely coming back someday.